This is gonna be a long one by the looks of things…
Recently I’ve been kind of binge watching YouTube videos, specifically lifestyle channels. I have a few favourites that have inspired me. I don;t know in what way they’ve inspired me exactly, but I feel inspired to do something.
I’d love to have a YouTube channel and dedicate some time to making videos about things I love, but I’m not quite sure I’m there yet. I’ve got a few issues that are holding me back mentally from actually doing something with this new inspired feeling I have, and I really want to take steps to overcome them. I’ve recently discovered that my body has decided that I need to be punished for eating some food types, and it makes me have a number of symptoms I’m less than pleased with.
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The biggest issue for me is the constant bloated appearance I have at the moment, which may be linked to the amount of wheat I eat. Combating this is going to be a struggle, as I love pasta, bread, cereal and pancakes and I’m going to struggle to remove or limit my intake of them. I’m also struggling with my stomach constantly being at war with itself, and bubbling constantly. I also have issues to do with my intestines acting like I’ve offended them. I have a few ideas about what this issue could be, but I’m not going to say “I have so-and-so and I need treatment”, as I need to do some investigations first and I don’t want to worry/annoy any readers. I’m going to try and keep a food diary and see if I can recognise patterns between the food and how much my body hates me to see what I need to do when it comes to my diet.
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Other than that, my body seems to be okay from a glance. Inside, however, I really don’t feel 27. I have never done any sort of exercise, other than the standard walking we do in our everyday business. I want to change that, and I know it can be as simple as just doing it, but believe me when I say it’s not that easy for a serial procrastinator. I think about exercise, or other healthy stuff and I hear that little voice inside saying “but why, when you’re still slim and you haven’t played a game today?” I want to strangle that little voice sometimes as it’s part of the reason I can’t run a hundred meters without wanting to throw my lungs up. However, that little voice has also started to whisper other things lately… “you know, if you do some squats, your arse could look as good as hers”, “you know, if you did some sit ups and crunches, your belly wouldn’t wobble as much as it does”, “you know, if you ran around the block a few times, you would feel proud of yourself”, and so on. I think I’m growing to like her.
I know this might seem like a tangent, but have you noticed that this has been 520 words so far? That’s 520 words more than I wrote on this blog yesterday, or the day before and I didn’t even struggle. I feel proud about it. Maybe this is what the inspiration is: I feel inspired to do something I enjoy, that isn’t playing a video game.
Can this inspiration last for more than a lunch break? I hope so, but baby steps my little voice inside, let’s not be too hasty – I don’t want to drive you away. How about you say “why don’t you write a little bit more tomorrow about something you enjoy?”
I like doing small parts, because I don’t feel I’m that practised in acting. It’s like making baby steps towards a bigger goal. – Heidi Klum